In Memoriam:
Originally the Capsulock Podcast was in the planning stages of being a two person podcast, one where the hosting duties would be shared. Each episode would be about the desired subject of the host, as the planning stages continued my future co-host would undergo health setbacks that he would eventually succumb to. While the pain is still fresh, the motivation and his words are still ringing clear in my mind like months were only hours ago.
Anyone who had the chance to know Ceese, knows why I am writing something like this. I really looked forward to working with him and building the forum for discussion we wanted to provide. Now I can only think about how much I wish I would have recorded his thoughts to listen back to and created more memories with him before our paths would separate.
As a person who is seldom at a loss for words I will never be able to accurately fill this space with the influence Ceese had on me just in his patience as well as his open mind and heart. I will go on with this podcast with only half the vision as before but with none of the things he impressed on me lost with him.
Over the time that I knew him, Ceese was always persistent about doing a podcast with me and it was the conversations with him that continued to chip away at my stubbornness of being "just another wrestling podcast", and more because I wanted to record the conversations we had, he continued to work with me to brainstorm a format we could both enjoy. If it wasn't for him I would have long given up the idea of doing this. Now I do it to build new memories with the friends I have made, and to continue our plan.
The only thing I like better than an open, accepting conversation, is an open, accepting conversation with someone you've shared many with before. The bond we continued to build based on the sharing of thoughts on the most to least important to us. It saddens me that now ultimately this is being achieved without the person I wanted to share this with, but it feels like the best way to continue on with the motivation and inspiration he gave me in life. Thank you Ceese for being you.
RIP Ceese, gone but not forgotten
- April 9th, 2016
Anyone who had the chance to know Ceese, knows why I am writing something like this. I really looked forward to working with him and building the forum for discussion we wanted to provide. Now I can only think about how much I wish I would have recorded his thoughts to listen back to and created more memories with him before our paths would separate.
As a person who is seldom at a loss for words I will never be able to accurately fill this space with the influence Ceese had on me just in his patience as well as his open mind and heart. I will go on with this podcast with only half the vision as before but with none of the things he impressed on me lost with him.
Over the time that I knew him, Ceese was always persistent about doing a podcast with me and it was the conversations with him that continued to chip away at my stubbornness of being "just another wrestling podcast", and more because I wanted to record the conversations we had, he continued to work with me to brainstorm a format we could both enjoy. If it wasn't for him I would have long given up the idea of doing this. Now I do it to build new memories with the friends I have made, and to continue our plan.
The only thing I like better than an open, accepting conversation, is an open, accepting conversation with someone you've shared many with before. The bond we continued to build based on the sharing of thoughts on the most to least important to us. It saddens me that now ultimately this is being achieved without the person I wanted to share this with, but it feels like the best way to continue on with the motivation and inspiration he gave me in life. Thank you Ceese for being you.
RIP Ceese, gone but not forgotten
- April 9th, 2016